This is real. I have butterflies. As much as Kai needs a mommy, I need him. I wish this child knew how many hearts he has touched with just his picture. I hope he knows we are coming for him.
An orphan (especially a young child) may be the most helpless of all of us here on earth. He has no father and mother to protect him. One night, I came across this little boy’s picture on Rainbowkids.com. I was not going to get attached because I really thought he would already be taken. He was on the list of orphans for several months, and was on the third page of kids that met my criteria.
I believe that even at that point a plan was already made and I just needed to fall into it. I inquired about this child with the adoption agency that had his file, and it turned out he was still available! Despite the pleas to not fall in love, I fell in LOVE. I wanted nothing more than to be “Wyatt’s” mommy. Everything about this situation felt right.
All I knew when I accepted him was that he had an unrepaired congenital heart defect. The nurse in me saw a baby that was thin with patchy hair and had a helpless look in his eyes. I was hooked. I knew then we were destined to be together as a family and I was going to have sell it to my husband. After reading his story and seeing his picture, it was not a hard sell.
So here we are, at the airport just waiting for our plane to take off. I said my tearful goodbyes to my family and friends. I will miss my twin sister the most. At one time, she was coming with me on this adventurous journey. When we parted, we were both crying. Taking this trip without her is like not being all here. We are so close. I will miss you Julie, so much. Roger and I were taken to the airport by Michael and Juliette. We are so lucky to have them in our life. They have also been there every step of the way. I don’t know how I could have kept it together without them. We love you both.
Jill,
ReplyDeleteI miss you already. Work isn't the same without you. Mock survey.. Ugh. I think the evs worker was about to start crying after de questioned them on the signs of a stroke. Who am I going to talk to while you are gone? I got your note today... Super cute.. Both in email and in the mail. I liked the mail version better (points for surprise). I've been thinking about sticky ideas all evening. Maybe we should push for Feb on my portion. We'll talk when you get back, but I'll try to start putting it together. I'm really pumped for you. I got a little teary-eyed at your blog. Have fun. Buy a little soldier for Kai in Xian. (probably spelled that wrong and it's a totally different city). You know what I mean. See ya soon.
P.s. I think you are a total dork for posting diagrams on your blog. Who taught you how to do that??
ReplyDeleteJill: That's such a beautiful message, and it has me crying tears of joy that you are about to be the mother you were always meant to be! Good luck to you and Roger and Kai... I will pray for God to continue to bless you during this life-changing journey!
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